Desperado - Sung by Eagles.

Desperado,
Why don't you come to your senses?
You've been out riding fences, for so long now.
Oh, you're a hard one.
I know that you got your reasons.
These things that are pleasing you,
Can hurt you somehow.

Don't you draw the queens of diamonds boy,
She'll beat you if she's able,
You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet.
Now it seems to me some fine things,
Have been laid upon your table.
But you only want the ones that you can't get.

Desperado,
Wo you ain't getting no younger.
Your pain and your hunger, they're driving you home.
And freedom, oh freedom.
Well that's just some people talking.
Your prison is walking through this world all alone.

Don't your feet get cold in the winter time.
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine.
It's hard to tell the night time from the day.
You're losing all your highs andlows.
Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away.

Desperado,
Why don't you come to your senses?
Come down from your fences,
Open the gate.

It may be raining,
But there's a rainbow above you.
You'd better get somebody love you,
You'd better get somebody love you,
Before it's too late.

习惯性的在每个周六的晚上都睡不好觉。不知道多久以前，家里的床对于我来说还是一片恢复生机的沃土。渐渐地就在每个周末都睡不安稳。
重庆人的老话说，金窝银窝不如自己的狗窝。家似乎一直象征着庇护和宁静。曾经温暖的家不知什么时候也变了模样。年岁渐长却和家人彼此相持愈见生疏，自从进入初中搬家之后，便难得享受家的温馨，对待父母也总是充满距离感。在十二岁这个大多数同龄人还躲在大人背后羞羞怯怯的年龄，便开始向家人说不。隐约记得，在初一教室的第一节课，我穿着黑色橡胶球鞋坐在“城里”孩子中间，心里忐忑不安。下课之后我背着新买的劣质书包，穿过拥在门口的家长们走出校园。应该从那时候起，慢慢地心智就在自我怀疑和自我肯定里歪歪扭扭地长着。
作为一个男生，在心理年龄上甚至远超发育更快的同龄女生。在很多很多个阴雨的午后，就靠着窗口胡思乱想打发时间。一直都觉得，这样频繁的思考最后导致了更多的失望和寂寞，当然也向生命本质迈得更近。大概正是出于这样的失望，也懂得人与人之间关系的脆弱，所以对朋友更加珍视，不留余地。
从很小的时候就是回避孤独的人。一个人的时候总是不愿意呆在自己家里，更喜欢在同学家待到晚上，然后等着父亲揪着耳朵提回家。进了中学更是经常留宿挚友在家，不明白人之间的对待消磨，一心只想有人作伴。
进了大学之后，突然在星期六晚上没有可以邀约的人了。鉴于传说中混浊的人际关系，无法与人真心相待，又疏于表面功夫。在灯红酒绿的周末更愿意回到家，吃母亲做的佳肴，零零星星地聊聊近况。然后出门围着附近的体育场散步，看铁丝网里生龙活虎打球的男人。回到家就卧在沙发上不停翻电视，或者一直扑在电脑前面直到半夜。再也不会像以前一样在星期五放学前兴奋地和人讨论周末的娱乐。只是安静地收拾上包回家。一周六天在学校，一天在家。似乎没有理由把这唯一和家人相处的一天再做缩减。况且，也没有缩减的必要。
心里一直怕着是自己的心老了，不想多挪动。对于假期的出行也少了热情，高频率的出行让恒心消磨得太快。现在回想一个人上路的心情，几乎不记得。庆幸自己确凿曾有过那样的日子。